Gumgummesso

This is written on 27 June 2018. However, I just have the willingness to post it right now.

Hello, oremaniya, which means, long time no see!

Yes. I am learning some Korean. Why? Yeah. Because I want to know what they say tak I mean, right when I listen to their music. It is never a waste of time to learn anew language, is it? Well, I know my English is not even an expert, but why do you have to be an expert at something to learn new things? I guess, if you want to do it, then do it. 

Anyway, that is not what I want to write about. Well, I want to write about my doubt about what I should do in the future.

As you see, I just graduated from my university about a month ago. Of course, I am so happy to be graduated as soon as I could, but I also don’t know what to do next. I mean, I know exactly what I want. I really do. However, society wants a different thing. My family would surely against my idea. I am in the middle of deciding which one is the best for me. 

This is my life. This is my time. I could do whatever I want to do. That is what my heart says. However, my head thinks the other way. I have my parents. I need to do anything to pay them back for whatever they have already given me. I cannot do just what I want to do. That is not right. What should I do?

Do you know what I want to do the most?

Writing.

However, I always think, if I choose this path, if I really do write to support myself, is it going to be easy? Is it the right thing?  You know Asian parents. They don’t expect you to be an artist (singer, writer, etc) that kind of job are underrated for them. They want you to be a civil servant who will get paid every month.

If I choose that path, will I survive? Will I able to support my parents too?

I can’t lie that I love music, books, and movies so much. It is not just a hobby. However, when I told them that I wanna write a scenario, I wanna create a very great drama than all of the other drama in the national tv, silence is all I get as the response. They don’t think it’s possible. They think that it is just a dream. Is it really just a dream?

And this is what annoys me the most. I just wonder why people ask the same thing every time I tell them about my dream. They will always say, “Then when will you get married? You have to think about your future children.” I can’t believe it! Is it really a sin to not have an interest to marry at my age? I just don’t have the time to think WHEN I WILL GET MARRIED WHEN I CAN’T EVEN TAKE CARE OF MY OWNSELF JUST RIGHT NOW!

Well, those are my worries. I know there are lots of questions I ask. Gumgummeso. By the way, I already know how to read and write Hangeul, but I can’t type it because it needs another app to type. That is why I use the Romanized version hehe. See you another time. Hope you do great even better than I am :)