How I Began to Love Bigbang

I really want to write a story, but I don’t know what I want to write. I have a lot to tell, but the more I think about it. The more I don’t want to share because it would be cheesy stories outside.

                What should I write?

                What should I share with you?

                What if I write a story about me? Well, everything here is always about me. So……

                Recently, I fell for another genre of music, which is hip hop, and those who make me fell in love with that genre is the famous Korean boyband, Bigbang.

                I used to be very skeptical about kpop, or anything you call it, because they are dancing while they are singing and that makes me feel a bit strange, or may be too girly? Yeah, I think so. I did not know why I don’t like kpop back then. Well, I used to love it when I was in the 10^th grade, but then I met western, and I forget about Korea like everything about it, except, Boys Before Flowers and Full House.

                I already know Bigbang at my 9^th or 10^th grade, I forget when exactly I know that boyband. The first song I encountered is Bad Boy. It’s good. I like it, and then the next song is Fantastic Baby which is a freaking badass song, and after that “puff” gone away. I mean me and my interest to Korean Pop.

                However, a month ago, I began to watch running man (Well, I know I’m late) and I laughed so hard. The show is freaking funny. I don’t expect to see something as funny as running man. Then, once in the morning, I watched an episode of bigbang in it, and I started to watch their videos on YouTube, and just like that, I fell in love with them.

                Their music is so different. I mean, I never expect myself to like that kind of genre, especially with a lot of rap in it, I really can’t rap, but when TOP and G-Dragon did that, it’s awesome. I really hate a western song with something that featured with a rapper, because it stops me to sing their song, but with bigbang, I love the rap so much. I even want to learn Korean so that I can sing the song in the right pronunciation.

                As always, once I like something, I began to obsess with it. So, I read articles, watch videos, anything with bigbang in it. I began to know the members, their persona in front of the TV (whether it is real or not). At first, I like GD, because he is great. He sings, raps, dances very beautifully great! His fashion is also great, no kidding. But, then, I met you, TOP. I know, it’s like every V.I.P, I mean most of them, they take GD or TOP as their bias. So cliché. However, I like TOP, not because he is the tallest (I’m not tall anyway), not because he is handsome, but because of his voice and his persona. I like to say it persona, because I know him from what I watch, not what I learn or encounter. If I am his friend or anything that close to him, I’ll call it personality or characteristic, but I only watch what I see and make a judgment from it, so it won’t be fair to feel like I know him because the truth is I don’t. Back to the topic, I love T.O.P because he makes me like the rap part in a song. He makes the rap live like really helpful for the song. When he raps, it’s just good. I even like his rap song, Turn it Up and Doom Dada (You have to know that I hate Blessed by Kanye and his friends) I know I can’t sing it, but the song, keeps me on fire. Also, his persona, he acts very silly in front of the camera, so different from what I expected.

                You have to know that it is easy to find all about Korean artist in the internet. What they like, what they don’t like. Everything is an open source. It’s different from all those Hollywood stars that I love like Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Andrew Garfield (especially him). Those variety shows, those questions, in Hollywood, it’s kind of rude to ask something private. So, it’s very hard to know what they like, what they always do, and so on, except if you’re a Kadarshian. However, in Korea, fans are very important for them, so they kind of make what is called by a fan service. It’s important not to make the fans mad. It’s very different from Hollywood, right? I mean, look at Justin Bieber, and Shia LaBeouf, and even Andrew Garfield. They don’t like to give up their privacy just for the fans. I respect it. I also don’t like it when people want to know everything about me, stalking me, ugh. The paparazzi in Hollywood is the worst. They ask offensive question, and it’s just disrespectful.

                In Korea, there are a lot of variety shows which allow you to know deeper (whether they tell the truth or not) about the stars. I like it. I watch so many variety shows about bigbang, and it’s so genuine. Feels very genuine I mean. As one of their fans, I feel very happy. I want all of the stars to know that sometimes, even their giggles already made their fans happy all day long. I’m not the type of those judgy fans. I don’t like to be judged, so I won’t do it to anyone. So, everything my idols done, I’ll support it as long as it makes them happy and healthy.

                Bigbang is having a hiatus right now. Taeyang and GD are having their solo (it ends by now), and Seungri is busy with his business, Daesung, well, I don’t know about him because he doesn’t have instagram or even twitter, and TOP, I wish he is well. I’m so sad that I began to like bigbang when they are facing their long hiatus. TOP should be on his military service, but his scandal… ugh I don’t want to talk about it. He stops posting on instagram which is sad for me. He just posted once on his instagram feed after that scandal, but then deleted it three minutes later. I hate it so much that I have to wait another three or maybe four years to see them together L In fact, I’m afraid that they’ll never get back together. It makes me think that I’m late. I’m so late.

I hope you are all okay, Oppa.

Don’t forget to come back.

T.O.P just so you know, you’re my sunshine, my only sunshine, so please don’t stop shining on those people who loves you. We love you. I, especially, love you.