I really want to write a story, but I don’t know what I want to write. I have a lot to tell, but the more I think about it. The more I don’t want to share because it would be cheesy stories outside.
What
should I write?
What
should I share with you?
What if
I write a story about me? Well, everything here is always about me. So……
Recently,
I fell for another genre of music, which is hip hop, and those who make me fell
in love with that genre is the famous Korean boyband, Bigbang.
I
used to be very skeptical about kpop, or anything you call it, because they are
dancing while they are singing and that makes me feel a bit strange, or may be too
girly? Yeah, I think so. I did not know why I don’t like kpop back then. Well,
I used to love it when I was in the 10th grade, but then I met
western, and I forget about Korea like everything about it, except, Boys Before
Flowers and Full House.
I
already know Bigbang at my 9th or 10th grade, I forget
when exactly I know that boyband. The first song I encountered is Bad Boy. It’s
good. I like it, and then the next song is Fantastic Baby which is a freaking
badass song, and after that “puff” gone away. I mean me and my interest to
Korean Pop.
However,
a month ago, I began to watch running man (Well, I know I’m late) and I laughed
so hard. The show is freaking funny. I don’t expect to see something as funny
as running man. Then, once in the morning, I watched an episode of bigbang in
it, and I started to watch their videos on YouTube, and just like that, I fell
in love with them.
Their
music is so different. I mean, I never expect myself to like that kind of genre,
especially with a lot of rap in it, I really can’t rap, but when TOP and
G-Dragon did that, it’s awesome. I really hate a western song with something
that featured with a rapper, because it stops me to sing their song, but with
bigbang, I love the rap so much. I even want to learn Korean so that I can sing
the song in the right pronunciation.
As
always, once I like something, I began to obsess with it. So, I read articles,
watch videos, anything with bigbang in it. I began to know the members, their
persona in front of the TV (whether it is real or not). At first, I like GD,
because he is great. He sings, raps, dances very beautifully great! His fashion
is also great, no kidding. But, then, I met you, TOP. I know, it’s like every
V.I.P, I mean most of them, they take GD or TOP as their bias. So cliché.
However, I like TOP, not because he is the tallest (I’m not tall anyway), not
because he is handsome, but because of his voice and his persona. I like to say
it persona, because I know him from what I watch, not what I learn or
encounter. If I am his friend or anything that close to him, I’ll call it
personality or characteristic, but I only watch what I see and make a judgment
from it, so it won’t be fair to feel like I know him because the truth is I
don’t. Back to the topic, I love T.O.P because he makes me like the rap part in
a song. He makes the rap live like really helpful for the song. When he raps,
it’s just good. I even like his rap song, Turn it Up and Doom Dada (You have to
know that I hate Blessed by Kanye and his friends) I know I can’t sing it, but
the song, keeps me on fire. Also, his persona, he acts very silly in front of
the camera, so different from what I expected.
You
have to know that it is easy to find all about Korean artist in the internet.
What they like, what they don’t like. Everything is an open source. It’s
different from all those Hollywood stars that I love like Joseph Gordon-Levitt
and Andrew Garfield (especially him). Those variety shows, those questions, in
Hollywood, it’s kind of rude to ask something private. So, it’s very hard to
know what they like, what they always do, and so on, except if you’re a
Kadarshian. However, in Korea, fans are very important for them, so they kind
of make what is called by a fan service. It’s important not to make the fans
mad. It’s very different from Hollywood, right? I mean, look at Justin Bieber,
and Shia LaBeouf, and even Andrew Garfield. They don’t like to give up their
privacy just for the fans. I respect it. I also don’t like it when people want
to know everything about me, stalking me, ugh. The paparazzi in Hollywood is
the worst. They ask offensive question, and it’s just disrespectful.
In
Korea, there are a lot of variety shows which allow you to know deeper (whether
they tell the truth or not) about the stars. I like it. I watch so many variety
shows about bigbang, and it’s so genuine. Feels very genuine I mean. As one of
their fans, I feel very happy. I want all of the stars to know that sometimes,
even their giggles already made their fans happy all day long. I’m not the type
of those judgy fans. I don’t like to be judged, so I won’t do it to anyone. So,
everything my idols done, I’ll support it as long as it makes them happy and
healthy.
Bigbang
is having a hiatus right now. Taeyang and GD are having their solo (it ends by
now), and Seungri is busy with his business, Daesung, well, I don’t know about
him because he doesn’t have instagram or even twitter, and TOP, I wish he is
well. I’m so sad that I began to like bigbang when they are facing their long
hiatus. TOP should be on his military service, but his scandal… ugh I don’t
want to talk about it. He stops posting on instagram which is sad for me. He
just posted once on his instagram feed after that scandal, but then deleted it
three minutes later. I hate it so much that I have to wait another three or
maybe four years to see them together L
In fact, I’m afraid that they’ll never get back together. It makes me think
that I’m late. I’m so late.
I hope you are all okay, Oppa.
Don’t forget to come back.
T.O.P just so you know, you’re my
sunshine, my only sunshine, so please don’t stop shining on those people who
loves you. We love you. I, especially, love you.