Growing Apart?

“When people grow up, sometimes, they grow apart.” That sentence, that group of words, that is a reality. Apparently, the quote I read after watching the most heartbreaking yet relieving movie (500) Days of Summer is giving me lessons on how to let go of someone.

I hate the fact that maintaining a relationship is frustratingly hard. You want to be who you are, yet you have to tolerate other people, and when you are tolerating other people, there is a big chance that you cannot be you.

Maybe it is my fault. Maybe it is because I am not smart enough to know how to be someone else in front of other people. Yes, you can call me stubborn, selfish, mean whatsoever you want to say, I do not give a fuck. I just don’t know what to do with you. And that makes me think that maybe growing apart is our destiny.

I wish I could stop this bullshit. Pretending. I hate that thing. I hate that I have to act like I am okay with you, even though I am not. I hate faking a smile even when I do not want to give a smile to you. I am what I am. I hate what I hate. I love what I love. I believe what I believe in. Well, surprisingly, that is not how it works, is it?

Human is a social creature. They cannot live themselves. They live together beside the fact that everybody is different. That is when the concept of tolerating each other remains the biggest thing to learn in a society. People are compromising to one another, and that maybe makes me broken hearted. Because sometimes, when I start to compromise, people won’t do the same thing as I did. And that’s when I think that maybe, growing apart is the key.

I am not asking you to go. I am asking you to speak, so we could start tolerating each other. Speak, so we could compromise on what we want to maintain this relationship. Stop pretending because I am starting not to pretend that everything is okay. Speak, so we could know whether we should grow apart or grow together.