Hello there,
I recently watched a very….(I don’t know any comparison for the word GREAT, AMAZING, and so on and so on, because English is not my mother tongue) AMAZINGLY GREAT. Well, apparently every time I see a movie and it touch the core of my heart, I would call it great, but this one is different. Not in the way I like The Social Network, for its marvelous way of telling a story, not in the way I love La La Land for the best soundtrack movie I’ve ever heard, not in the way I love Hacksaw Ridge for introducing me for such a great actor like Andrew Garfield, but it’s like in the way of…. I think philosophical thought that I got after watching the movie. Like when I watch Spotlight, or Lincoln, anything that has a slight of trueness in it. Still, my favorite movie is (500) Days of Summer (with LOTS OF REASONS), but really… I need to let this out.
Of course, as always, after I watched a movie, I would always surf to iMDb.com to gain some information about the movie. Actors, crew, trivia, goofs, and the comments from other watchers, and it made me want to know even more about the guy named Chris aka Alex in the movie. So, I surfed more and found the article about what really cause him to die, and I also read the differences of the movie and the book. Well, the information was enough for me to learn something. Before I decided to write this thought that I have about this movie, I watched it a second time, and I cried (again).
Why?
Well, first of all, like Chris, I like the idea of being lonely. Like Chris, I also wonder why people are hurting each other. Like Chris, I think, I gave up on love (well, it’s really to say it, but I use the phrase “I think, so, anyway)
I am a girl who will always believe in God and worship Him (I hope) because I am afraid of Him and I believe with life after death. So, when I also have that same kind of problem as Chris has with his parents, the different think is that, I stick to God, and I think that it’s gonna be alright.
It really touched my heart, when I discovered that Chris and I are really much alike. You know, I was really thinking about the idea of being alone, because parents, friends, boyfriend, anything, hurt. I was so afraid about the future. I am afraid that I would disappoint my parents, friends, and God. Maybe, I am going to do the same thing as Chris did if I did not watch this movie, shutting myself from society.
Even though my parents make me cry a lot of times, I would still consider them as the best parents, well because I have no other parents. I tried to be what they want. You know, what parents do not realize is that they can crush their kids to pieces. Just like Chris. Just like me. If only I could hate them, but I can’t because I love God, and God forbid me to hate my own parents. I am not asking for a better one, anyway. I thank God, because I can learn something from them.
But then, this line makes me realize “HAPPINESS ONLY REAL WHEN SHARED.” I don’t know if the real Chris thinks that way. I don’t even know if he is guilty for his decision to leave. However, that line, got me thinking that yes, Chris (in the movie) was wrong which means, I might be wrong either.
It might be wrong to think that being alone is better that getting hurt from the society. Every man needs a company. Only God who could stand on his own, but man, they need somebody.